I dreamed about myself living in Oslo with a girlfriend (as in we were a couple) and that I had visited my parents or something, and when I wanted to get back to her, I couldn't, for some reason. No matter what I did, I could not get back to Oslo and her, which was extremely irritating and frustrating, because all I wanted was to hold her and know that she was there.
Still, no matter what I did, she was nowhere to be found, and I kept tumbling around in the dark wilderness (no, seriously, that was in my dream.)
And yet, the most annoying part was waking up, realizing that I don't have a person like that in my life.
This buggered me so much I had to write this in english. Also, I still feel kinda empty inside (been awake for a couple of hours now.) I'd classify this as a nightmare, because I woke up with a shock, sitting in my bed (even about half an hour before the alarm went off.)
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Awh.. I kinda feel a little sad knowing I smiled a little when I read this. It's kinda funny, you must admit it? ;O
I hope you'll find someone soon. And that you will be able to return back to her. At least you'll have me. :D
Yeah, I think it's kinda "xkcd-funny", actually. So no worries!
It's not that I'm worried that I won't find someone, I just worry that I might already missed a few chances, and I don't really get out much, so I rarely meet new people too.
Of course, knowing that I'm enlisted in the army come january and that afterwards I'll move to Oslo, I'm not it such a rush to meet someone now either.
I'm sure it'll be much more socializing when you move to Oslo. :D
I didn't find it funny at all, really. :P Especially because I have those kind of dreams all the time. The kind where you're trying to get to a place, but never manage to get there. And they're horrible! D: I wake up totally stressed out, and the feeling doesn't go away that easily. It also sucks having dreams that you want to go back to when you wake up (had some of those too, though not as many as the never-get-to-a-place ones).
I get that you kinda want someone special, Gunnar, but I don't think there's any use in thinking about it too much. You're fine on your own as well. Because the worst thing you can do is to hook up with someone just because you want a girlfriend. Love isn't something you should go looking for, it's something that should come naturally. At least that's what I feel. I get really annoyed at all the 14-year-olds that say the thing they want most is a boyfriend/girlfriend, because it feels like they'll go for almost anyone. That they see everyone as a potential spouse. When it comes on its own I think the chance of the person being right is much higher.
You're a great person, Gunnar, and I know you'll find someone. But you're not in a hurry. I don't regret not having a boyfriend up till now at all, no matter how nice it is. It's not something to be rushed.
/rant owari
@cosmos
Yeah, I do suspect so. I don't know why, I just don't feel that I know people aroung here well enough to just contact them on my own and hang out. Either that or I don'trust them enough or something. Don't know.
@janne
No need to worry, I won't rush things.
I've only met two, perhaps three people in my life who I could see myself in a relationship with ;)
I didn't really think you would, Gunnar. :3 I just had to rant and make sure. ;O
I really hate these kinds of dreams(nightmares).... Have had em a lot while growing up..
Eeep, just wanted to say that.. and that I wish you'd blog more.. and be happier! ;D
Yeah, I should supply you with a little more news, but truth is, there's really not much going on in my life right now. I mean, I'm just working for the time being, and it's pretty much the same every day. Besides, the only times I really feel like writing here is when I'm depressed or bored. It seems. Oh well, perhaps I could write a little about my job!
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